Dear God,

Can I just tell you how much I LOVE listening to JP's little prayers each night? So heartwarming... the perfect thing to help mend a broken heart.

Last night:

"Dear God, Thank you for pizza, mac and cheese, my plump pillow, my webkinz and my Froggie. And God, thank you for everything. Amen."

I wonder what tonight will bring? :)

Oh, and for those of you who don't know, his "plump pillow" is his Snoopy Head Pillow. He loves the word PLUMP.

Emergency Worker Day!

JP and I went to Emergency Worker Day at the Farmstead today... what little boy wouldn't want to check out the firetrucks and police vehicles??? Here are some pics from today...

First stop... the firetruck!!

This is inside the police water rescue truck. JP thought that was VERY cool. He was checking out the equipment they use.
JP with the dive vest, etc. Big boy water rescuer!
Again, more water rescue info... JP was asking him all sorts of questions.
The police motorcycle.
Posing with the Children's Mercy Lifeflight Pilots.
It was a fun morning! I think every single person we talked to asked JP, "What grade are you in? 2nd?" LOL! He needs a shirt that says, "hey! I'm 4 1/2! I'm only in Pre-K!" :)

Tonight.... Church!

Branching Out

I think it's time to fill a void in my life. That void is church. JP and I met a friend last night at Church of the Resurrection (COR) to check it out, see the kids area where their classes are held, view the sanctuary, etc. I really liked what I saw and was not as overwhelmed as I thought I would be by the size of the campus. Once you are inside it doesn't seem that large. The parking lots (alphabetized, parking attendants) are more overwhelming than the church itself. So, tomorrow JP and I are going to church at COR. I'm going to attend the 5pm service and he is going to be in a COR Kids class for "sunday school." He really seemed to enjoy it there as much as I did. Looking forward to tomorrow! If all goes as planned I am hoping to join a BBM (Building Better Moms) group that is for single moms. They meet once or twice a month on Wed. evenings. Why not, right?

I as I... Not as We

Scroll on down to the bottom of the page to my music and click on Song #1... here are the lyrics so you can follow along. Yeah, it struck a chord with me!!!

"Not As We" Alanis Morissette

Reborn and shivering
Spat out on new terrain

Unsure unconvincing
This faint and shaky hour

Day one day one start over again
Step one step one
I'm barely making sense for now
I'm faking it 'til I'm pseudo making it
From scratch begin again but this time I as i
And not as we

Gun shy and quivering
Timid without a hand

Feign brave with steel intent
little and hardly here

Day one day one start over again
Step one step one
with not much making sense just yet
I'm faking it til I'm pseudo making it
From scratch begin again but this time I as i
And not as we

Eyes wet toward
Wide open frayed
If God's taking bets
I pray He wants to lose

Day one day one start over again
Step one step one
I'm barely making sense just yet
I'm faking it til I'm pseudo making it
From scratch begin again but this time I as I
And not as we

First Day of Pre-K!

First day of Pre-K! JP is such a big boy. He was SO excited to go back to school and to see his friends! He thinks it is very cool to be in the "oldest" class in his preschool now. He loves all 3 of his teachers, too!

All Smiles!

Out in front of school:
Walking into school:
JP and some of his buddies: JP, Ben, Noah and Jake. Yes, the same Ben from the "So I poked him in the eye!" story!!! :)
The boys and their backpacks. They actually made me take this picture BEFORE the other one! LOL!
Looking forward to a wonderful year at Aldersgate!!! The same 4 boys plus Caden even had a playdate afterschool.... McDonalds Playland! And they sure had lots of fun!!!

Picking myself up...

I'm moving forward. Picking myself up and moving on. Staying strong. I've got motivation. His name is JP.

I'm reading a good book right now, "The Courage to be a Single Mother." It is a good read and offering me a great deal of insight from people who have been through this before.

I'm starting to live a life for ME. I'm doing more things for ME. I'm playing on a softball team and our first practice is this weekend and I am also playing some golf this weekend. Don't forget Bunco.... got that on Monday!

JP is doing great. He starts Pre-K on Monday but had his visitation at school yesterday and met his teachers and visited his classroom. JP is the elephant this year. Always such a big deal... what your symbol is going to be! He is so bright... every day he says or does something that blows me away. He loves to read. He can read any age appropriate book now... even some advanced books. And his numbers? Wow. The kid loves his math. He'll sit in the car and say, "hey mom... did you know that 10 + 10+ 5 is 25??? Did you know that 3000 + 27 is 3027??? When did he start counting in the thousands? I guess the hundreds were too boring. Oh, and don't forget his passion for baseball! We still "practice" every night! He's getting really good at catching pop flies! He'll be ready to go next spring, that's for sure!

So... Me and My Boy are doing good. Of course I have my weak moments but I am strong... and I will move on. Go Me.

Oops.

Ok, so I lied. Today... I'm not so strong. It's been a rough one.

Curveball

Wow. It really IS "Me and My Boy" now, isn't it?

How is it possible for someone's whole life to change in 1 month??? Just turn upside down? It is possible. Trust me.

Only the strong survive. That's me. STRONG.

One day at a time.